Will It Never End???

I got a message from a friend today saying that Lenny is have an emotional breakdown and has posted on facebook and his blog about how I sent him an email to finish things up. They also said that his friends we calling me a coward for doing it. I hate when people judge before they know the whole story. They don't know that I tried to do that in person. They don't know how hard it is to explain stuff to Lenny because he always takes it the wrong way. I sent him the email and, according to what my friend told me, he even mistook my words from that email. I tried to explain to him everything there was to say that night that I ended out friendship but honestly I still care about him as a person and I could tell he was upset. I didn't want to prolong that moment. The only reason I sent him the email is because he wouldn't stop bothering my best friend the night we were hanging out about how to fix the problem (The only reason I know is because I was looking through her ringtones and messages kept popping up). I sent the email because he wasn't getting it or maybe he was just refusing to accept it. I don't know. All I know is I'm looking forward to the day when I don't get messages from friends saying he's sharing our problem with the world. I got news for you world I FORGIVE HIM! I have for a while and just because I won't be his friend again doesn't mean I don't. I'm just done. I didn't actually read his posts or blog and I'm not going to but from what I was told he seems to think that just because I won't be his friend means I don't forgive him. Apparently he's acting as though I can only forgive by being his friend. Thats like saying a wife can't forgive her husband for cheating on her without getting back together. Like a wife in that situation I forgive him but I'm done. I am the type of person who gives trust in the beginning. Granted I don't give full trust but I would say I give about 75% trust in the beginning. From there the person has the option of proving them self trustworthy and trying to make it to 100% or proving themselves untrustworthy and eventually making it down to 0%. Over the last 16months Lenny has been very kind and generous but being kind and generous doesn't make up for lies he told and actions he took that took him down to 0%. You can't buy trust and friendship. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate everything he's done but it doesn't make up for his mistakes. I forgive his mistakes but I'm done with dealing with the trust issues and obsessions. I am done with this whole situation and I have asked my friends and family to stop informing me on what he's doing so Lenny if you're reading this, know that I will no longer have any update on you so don't post anything for me because I won't see or hear about it. Before I go I'd like to say one last thing. This whole thing is not because of Lenny's disability. If it were because of that then this would have happened a long time ago. Also it has nothing to do with the fact that I'm bipolar and no amount of medication will fix this. I'm sorry but that's how it is. Now that I will not longer get info on Lenny my life can finally continue peacefully...